Die Aufregung

All of a sudden, your world is no longer that strange and unreachable.
Thank you. I feel belonged. And can hardly wait to know more.

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Heart Skipped a Beat

I’m supposed to feel indifference.
I’m supposed to hate.
I’m supposed to be friendly.
I’m supposed to forbid.
I’m supposed to trust.

You make my head hurts and my heart beats exceedingly fast. Someone should sue you for being too interesting and violently unusual. Go away.

For fuck’s sake, stop making me so happy that the thought of losing you scares the hell out of me.

Never Should(n’t) Stay Up at More Than 12 PM

I think I’m weird, and I didn’t mean to say it in attractive, lovable way like what people see in Zooey. More like a girl who once you get to know her close enough, you start wanting to scream “She’s a crazy bitch!” to all the people around every time you encountered her. Precisely that way.

It scares me how I think I will scare people off. It scares me how I think someday someone will finally be able to read my mind and find out all the crazy thing inside my head.

I’m obsessive, peculiar, abnormal, and insane. I’m not exaggerating nor drawing a long bow. Please just believe.

Don’t say I never warned you.

“Even when my luck is down, I take joy in knowing that our love grows”

I always have a particular song for particular moments, and for particular people who made quite significant effect in my life. Most of the songs don’t have any related meanings to what or who they will recall, but some do. Surely Attack Attack! doesn’t have anything to do at PROKM moment with my beloved Rakshadeva, or AFI never really done anything that got my old man into trouble that befall him. Although, this one does, along with Undercover Martyn and Snow Brigade. Kind of lame, hehe, but a good reminder of love. I love lame, but if and only if it is shared in secrecy between two people. Oh and I hope Yeasayer will do their best at their concert to come.

(Again, the audio is coming soon. My internet sucks major time since I forced it to download some extra album that I can’t wait for another month to hear. But truly, I do not support piracy. I have promised myself to buy all of my favorite artists’ album when I’m wealthy enough. Cross my heart) edited : click here for the audio.

Madder Red – Yeasayer

(Chorus)

Even when my luck is down
I take joy in knowing that our love grows
But if my vices are a burden
Please don't let me off
Cast me from your home

(Chorus)

'Cause lately I have wronged you
And not been on your side, love
Maybe I've been gone
Please don't ask me why

I turn away just when you want me
And I know that home is where you want me
There's not much for me there

Never gave a thought to an honorable living
Always had sense enough to lie
It's getting hard to keep pretending
I'm worth your time

(Chorus)

Never gave a thought to an honorable living
Always had sense enough to lie
It's getting hard to keep pretending
I'm worth your time

Cause lately I have wronged you
And nothing on your side, love
Maybe I've been gone
Please don't ask me why
Please don't ask me why
Please don't ask me why
Please don't ask me why

I Really Want To…

… have a holiday in far away places. I want to read many books. I want to hear more fine music. I want to watch more gigs and concert. I want to be fluent in Korean, Germany, and Dutch. I want to be better at playing musical instruments and singing. I want to be involved in a serious band project. I want to make a lot of money. I want to play a role in another real drama, see if I still have the talent. I want a chance to write, an article, story, poem, any kind of writing, and let people read it. I want to make friends with anyone possible, and have a lot of funny pictures with them. I want to dye my hair pink. I want to wear white contact lens. I want a cute cat. I really want to see you right now, I miss you a lot I think I’m going to blow.