I am not the nicest person on earth nor the most innocent girl you’ve ever known. I do sin. I very much envy people who are better than me in everything. It’s not that amusing to see someone else’s happy while I’m in pain and it’s KILLING me when I have to keep smiling for their happiness.
But at least I tried. I tried to compensate the things I’ve done wrong, if only you’re elated to tell me which part of my impudence that really annoys you. I am sorry darling. I really do. Though it’s not really distressing me to see everyone else have troubles, I cannot just sit still while I know that it is me that troubling you. Does it something that I have done? Or it is just because my existence? You tell me, please. And I am not being emo here, hehe, just trying to be realistic. Well truth always hurts, don’t you think?
I post this just so you know that I am trying really hard to know myself. I am so sorry if it shows that I have the negative thoughts about you, maybe I do. I want to throw away that negative thoughts you know, because swear to God I do really care about you. Let us make same assumption that I am trying really hard to be a better person for you here. Those anonymous posts in your blog and twitter, I really can’t hold myself to think that you’re teasing me. I deem you as one of my best friends so I want to make this clear whether I am being too negative or I am really that bad from your point of view. Please dear, I am very much frightened by you for a quite long time now.